Tough night for Mr. & Mrs. Smith of 1601 Main Street in Paducah! As usual, Mr. Smith doesn’t know what happened, exactly. Mrs. Smith can make him feel guilty when he is not aware that he is doing anything wrong. He is not sufficiently complementary, supportive or kind. He is too critical. She said that he thinks that she is a loser (!) Actually, the only person he calls a “loser” is “himself.” But nevermind.
Mr. Smith let himself drink 4 beers due to his stress/anger/frustration. He is having many bad thoughts. He needs to remember – all humans have issues, no one can fix someone else. This world, and all the people in it, will pass away. In 100 years, no one will remember Mr. Smith or what he has done during his life. He is an unimportant, insignificant creature. Humans are tortured by craving and clinging. The path to contentment requires humans to abandon those things that they crave and those things to which they cling. Loved persons must not be damaged by craving and clinging. Mr. Smith craves alcohol; he clings to a fictitious family bond that doesn’t really exist. He works, tries to give everyone everything they ask for and yet he is still not satisfying his loved ones. Material goods can never take the place of focused attention and true love. Mr. Smith is a failed person.
He finds it easy to sink into despair. He does fight it, successfully, every day. If he ever stops fighting, his life might end. Mr. Smith could never be so selfish to his family to end himself. That is not a possibility. But sometimes he wishes that he was that selfish. He wants to disappear.
Get a grip.